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goodmorning sweeties!
I ain't ready for the chess tournament... I'm in regret. I'm a failure. I'm gonna lose every game. the strongest is like 2300 Elo, oh God.
I'm fucked

I write this here ‘cause there’s no one in this section and I don’t care about likes or if you wanna read it or not I just need to write. I’m feeling bad right now, what I’m doing seems so pointless, seems like all will be hard to do, days are passing quick and are almost all fucking the same; I have to do important things for my life and my stability and then I gotta study too and I’m just doing nothing… I have a lot of energy but they’re stuck, I can’t use them, I have only my “reserves” they’re the only thing who make me alive, fortunately I have a lot of reserves but it’s like constantly living in saving mode, fortunately i don’t have a sad behaviour I can charge by my self im not a damn mummy I don’t wake up full of dust and quietness as Ramses II and Tutanfuck, I have the ability (forced) to just don’t think about the things and carry on, but as you know it’s hard… I mean in this site too how can you say you’re sad/depressed and then study 60-100 pages per day? fortunately I’m doing all the exams but it’s so hard and I’m doing all a the end of the days… how can my cousin say she’s depressed and acting so shy and quite compared to me who I look good because I talk and act good while I’m almost dead inside… and she has work stability, goes out almost every evening/night, no worries about bills and money (come on 350$ of rent? Don’t make me laugh 😹) why family is worried about her?! only because I act strong and she seems depressed all day? What the fuck are her problems? Yes hypochondriac behaviour who a little thing could be a cancer, then yeah “I will never find a man” (and a lot of men want her, but ok we know some of them are jerk and so on), “maybe I could do another job” yeah okay?! but trust me is a good job she’s not serving coffee or passing things at the supermarket… yeah my uncle is oppressing but my cousin it’s totally free got her car her house nobody say nothing… trust me I’m not jealous I love her and I’m happy she has stability (she’s older than me) I just don’t understand why I have to see her depressed talking about dumb things like “I will never find someone” (forgetting no one is good for you) while I have to struggle with work instability (will take years and I’ll be far from here i’ve to find something else in the meantime) money instability, social instability,life instability and I act like nothing is going on? 😹😹😹 I feel like to be in a war and if you’re in a war you don’t hide and cry but just carry on don’t thinking about “I’m gonna die” or you’ll probably die, I don’t listen those dumb sad songs or whatever sad thoughts and so on I don’t wanna feel bad… but at what cost? I look good so I don’t have problems to think about, ya? of course I’m just lazy and I like adrenaline rush when I’m near an exam or a lesson 🤪 of course it’s not something else!! My only bad-bad thing is enjoy driving fast, arrest me

hi

You feel a love
Well you better love yourself
Be careful now
Because love is against the law
Just so high you could give a fucking shit about the law
It's with your blood, sweat and tears to be living at all
You fight the lies
Everybody tries to tell you you're dead
It flashed before your eyes before anybody had said
The motherfuckers never stop drilling holes in your head
You want life
Oh but then you die so slow
Hands up drop the gun
Shots you dead and that's the hole in the law
You close your eyes to look at the lies
But then you seen it all
A freeze frame lasts forever but the picture is small
They say love is everywhere and that's the damned disdain
Hits in your eyes
And butterflies are part of everything
The cloudy skies
The fog in your eyes
The will that lets you see
A chance to fall
And hear the call
And grab the magic ring
Don't be surprised when you wake up and they tell you you're dead
I find that hope is the same as nothing a all
The motherfuckers never stop drilling holes in your head
And maybe now as you're starting to sink
You wake up and remember the words to this song
Maybe now as it's starting to sink
You wake up to discover you're singing along

POKER CARDS

I made u my king
But for u, i was just a 2 of spades
I called u darling
But all u gave me were bruises

Now i dont need u to play
Even if i still have wounds
I finally found the real jolly

Ur searching sm1 that treats u like a queen of diamonds
But keep on pray
Bc nobody will ever take off this poker masks
I swear, theyll never go away

WAKE UP!!!

IT'S THE SIXTH OF THE MONTH!!!

A PAGE IN UR STORY

word after word
U thought i was ur hole book
Bc u were my entire world
But i was just smt to poke

U shown ur jolly card
"I would never get angry at u, pookie"
So i said " ur my future husband"

Suddently i became just a page
All the things u said? They were all a lie
Now i cant escape this cage
And i just want to die

it’s already September…GREAT… one of the few good things I had was going to the sea and now you wanna know what I get instead? LESSONS (not school) now next week… bro I just wanted to enjoy late late august, why do I have to study, kick my balls, smash my head ‘cause YOU decided to put LESSONS in early September…
And I have to wear even long trousers because apparently showing my perfect legs it’s inappropriate huh?

Your favorite jester is here

So, I was following kai stream ‘cause he was giving a goddamn gaming pc for free… I already won 1k fridge (fr not kidding) last year and I was like “I gotta try to win this contest 1/170.000 possibilities 🤪 but I must give it a try! And you wanna know what happened next? NOTHING fucking nothing… I was supposed to wait 10 minutes to write in chat after following the channel and after 3 minutes… the pc… was… GONE!
Now I gotta turn back waiting until summer 2026/year 2027 to reach 2k € all to be spent for a new gaming pc and maybe more because I wanna change the monitor too! I wanna do something big, my 9 yrs old gaming pc will still make it until 2026/2027?!, despite its struggling behaviour? We’ll see.

goodnight

THE STAR I NEVER HAD

Ur like the pole star
You guide me to the right way
Not to an alcholic bar
And saying "search alone ur way"

You never let me drown
Even when im abt to su*cide
U take me to life, right when im down
Ill always be on ur side

I wanna be ur right arm
To help u fight
The falling star sharm
That wanted to bite

(This poem isnt good as other ones i did, im sorry)

I'm freezing.

BUNNY

Im a weird being
They say "ur so funny"
But nobody cares abt how im feeling
at the end im just a bunny

Its always "dogs or cats?"
No one will ever see a hare
That is being eaten by some bats
Bc u never really know if they care

Im scared beetween wolves
They look ravenous
W those angry eyes
They always look dangerous

At the end of the day im just a stupid rabbit
Who cant even build a den
And leave that bad habbit
That i built back then

Always two steps ahead

Hello guys! Sometimes I forget this Chanel.

Yo soy sin auriculares

SPIDERS

Ur like spiders
U set a trap,
i fell in your eyes
And it ended up w a life snap

I hate this cobweb
Cause i belived in ur fakeness
Now i cant just fleeb
Ts is escapeless

Ur scary w ur long legs,
Ur poison is killing me
I know ive no chance to save my ass
Bc ull eat everything i have

It’s finally raining!
I love it, it’s so relaxing and not even cold, I wanna enjoy this moment like forever

hi guyssss

LIGHT AT THE END

Once this was full of shadows
It was full of fears
But now i can see happy meadows
And in everywhere i can see flowers

The tunnel was long
And was pretty hard to keep walking in
But i kept strong
And it endend w a win

Im not the same dude
That entered in it that night
But i wont hide
By the monsters i once fight

UNPAIRED SOCK

Pairs of socks are everywhere
Theyre all smiling
While im sitting here,
Crying

I cant find the missing sock
It could be thrown away
Or maybe its broke
And im praying the wrong one to stay

What if they were right?
I wasnt made to be in a pair
Ill never find light
And this is not fair

WHITE PENCIL

Im the pencil nobody will use
All beacuse im not that good
I will always be in that purse
I will always wear a hood

Maybe i dont want to be noticed
Maybe im useless
But i will never be used
Im just colourless

They always leave me apart
I know is bc im useless on a white page
But one day
Ill jump out of this edge

SUMMER NIGHTS

Now my heart is in the darkness
You can only see fireflies
All because u didnt gave me a kiss
And stop looking at me w those eyes

My mouth is completly silent
You can only hear locusts
You werent worth a cent
I wish we never met on those streets

My moon is completly covered
By ur stupid clouds
I thought i was loved
All because u kept saying those words

I cant even see the stars
And keep loosing my spark
All because worthless suns
This always leaves a mark

Did you see the Twin Towers fall in 2001?

Ma quindi nei dintorni di hint si trova l'hinterland 🤔

MY FAVORITE FLOWER

Ur shaped like a rose
And ill cut off all ur spikes
Just to give u a kiss on ur nose
And look into your beautiful eyes

Ur red cheeks remind me of a lilith
Expacially when u smile
U always take away my breath
And its been like this for a while

What abt our lips?
They r shaped like home
They look like a tulip
Cause ur lips r my fav flower

Ur insecurities look like bluebells
Bc u think they r withered
But when i look at u
I always think "hes the best"

Soy gay

negus